Hmmm...

As you know I recently became much more settled in where I am in my life right now. I really felt like God was saying just enjoy where you are at this moment, look at how I have blessed you.

I was foremost a wife and a mom. My two other jobs in life were: writer and client services coordinator at the crisis pregnancy centre. I had to stop fretting and worrying and just trust God to do the rest.

I even blogged about the undeniable feeling of peace and contentment that I was experiencing.

Something I hadn't felt in a very long time.

Well, an opportunity has arisen for me to work fulltime. I'll be forwarding my application in a few minutes. This is harder than I thought. As much as I prayed this would happen for almost 18 months (yes, for those wondering, it is a position with the SP newsroom) I found myself unexpectedly hesitant.

Why? I have no idea. Perhaps simply a reticence to disrupt the comfortable routine I've been able to forge.

I asked for prayer from a couple of wise and trusted friends. I didn't feel completely comfortable applying so I put it off.

Finally, on the last day of the job posting I emailed my friend at the SP (who would be doing the hiring) and asked several questions about the position. I decided that whatever his answer I would trust it as a sign from God. God has used this man in the past to give me answers about my career plans, so I trusted the same could happen this time.

As the deadline for applying passed, I simply decided this was part of God's answer - the timing was wrong. I accepted it without even feeling that disappointed. My life was abundant as it was, right?

My friend's answer came today. And it totally made me sit up and take notice. It confirmed what I'd already suspected: the position would be a good fit for me. It will take an incredible amount of training, but it was definitely something I was interested in and (possibly) would be very good at.

Hmmm... was this God's plan all along? That I would finally learn to walk in a new measure of peace and surrender - only to have what I'd prayed for all along come flying and hit me in the face.

So here I go folks... tossing my hat into the ring. Please say a prayer for this application. Pray that whatever happens I will have the same complete peace.

There are logistics to work out and again, I'm trusting that God will work them out when and if necessary.

Thank you for your prayers. I'm on my knees in gratitude that there is even a smidgen of a possibility that this could be part of God's plan. I'm taking this step forward as prayerfully as I can.

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