Surrender

Lord I don't know where all this is going
Or how it all works out.
Lead me to peace that past understanding
Peace beyond all doubt.

--Newsboys, Lord I don't know, from the album Thrive

Surrender has such a negative meaning in our society. We associate it with capitulation or giving up. Sometimes we even think of cowardice.

I'm not sure surrender as a military strategy would make one very successful as a military commander, but I do think there is a need for surrender in our faith walks.

We don't know what lies ahead. Often we are faced with situations that never work. The answers, the solution, the remedy are left just out of our reach.

Sometimes, maybe even a lot of times, I don't know where I'm going. I stumble through my days, mindful of the questions buzzing around my brain. Sometimes my days are a haze of pain as I wander through my tasks, burdened by situations or conflicts I can not fix.

Surrender.

To me surrender means being able to walk the path anyway. Not demanding God do everything exactly as we want it. Not looking to him like some Cosmis Santa or Universal Waiter. God is not a lapdop to do our bidding as we see fit. That would put us on the throne. Not Him.

If He is on the throne then that means accepting those painful, unfun times. Submitting our will to His and allowing His plan to play out.

Wow. It's hard sometimes.